Yes, life has it’s fantastic rollercoaster rides.. and, in my vow to be *fully human*, I ride with my hands up!!! Even if that means going from laughing out loud and smiling from ear to ear, to sobbing like a big fat baby because it’s scary and I WANT OFF!! :) It’s all the journey, of course… and beyond the thick of the mire, it’s a pretty miraculous one.

Noisepop just dug up a lot of feelings for me… reminding me of the last year of great shows. Seeing bands “we” always wanted to see. And the coup d’etat: Seeing Rick twice in 4 days. Mental note: Try to not do that anymore! It’s just still too tough. Out of site out of mind, for a little while more might be the best route.

It is always SUCH a pleasant surprise when I get emails and sweet comments from you all when I post about all the *real* stuff going on in my life. I certainly don’t write it for sympathy, although it does feel SO good to know I’m loved and supported when I feel so down.:) But, as I think you all know, I write here for myself… just to get it out of my head. I am always amazed at how much better I feel after I just give it voice, recognize it, and move on. It’s quite a normal and healthy process really. Some days are just better than others, that’s all! It’s cool though…. I’m riding it out just fine, and already have several dates lined up. Umm… with my couch, Netflix and Kettle Corn popcorn. :)

James hit it on the head by simply affirming that regardless of any wisdom and advice anyone gives another going through times like this, the truth is it just HURTS. Sho’ nuff!

And my Canadian Zazz Twin solidified our soul-sistership when she stated, “it’s easy to mistake the familiar as perfection when looking back on a relationship…” SO TRUE! and “…the lack of that sort of intimacy is such a rough adjustment. it blows.” You can say that again!!

I got a handful of wonderful emails and IM’s from darling friends and readers.. but I have to post this last one for me, me, me… because it just is so darling sweet and makes me feel so good:

“you remind me of all the happiness there is to be had if you only reach out and don’t judge and stay real. i am constantly amazed by your resiliency and pluck and just plain goodness. i am sending you huge hugs, and understanding of the getting-over-it thing. there are so many wonderful things waiting for us humans in the world… willo, i’m happy to say that you will actually deserve them.”

Stacey, do you think you could fit in my pocket? :)
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Earlier today I sat out on my sunny porch and took care of some emails, while Kazoobie explored our [extremely overgrown] garden. The rain has finally lifted up a bit and we have sunshine and blue skies! yay!! So in light of that, I will be double dosing the happiness meter by getting my ass to the gym later on for some much needed cardio (mental health pill) that will help lift me out of the thicket! Plus, I get to read my book! woohoo!!

Alright… I best get crackin on all my many many to-do’s… but remember: Hands up, eyes open & ENJOY THE RIDE!