yay! I just had such a nice talk with my Mom. I love Moms. xoxox

I also had a wonderful talk with my brother, Max, this morning, too – FINALLY! I could kick myself a million times for not calling him to spend Thanksgiving with me at the Orphan dinner. (he lives in Santa Cruz) In fact, I’ve probably already taken care of about 2,300 of those kicks I’ve felt so damn guilty about it. Anyway, I’m getting over it cuz he said he wanted to relax and lay low anyway – and that’s just what he did – so it’s probably for the best (although I know it was *just* his kind of party – kick, kick, kick.) There. Make that 2,303 down, and only 997,697 to go.

Life is so wild how friends come and go into your life… especially in a city. I have some very dear friends in my life – but sometimes they just all feel so far away. A couple of them *are* because they live in other cities far away, but some that actually live here can feel so distant too. They’re either married with kids now and living such a different lifestyle – or they’re just mixing in different circles than I am. It’s just kind of made me sad lately. I definitely love meeting new people, but I also feel like I am very loyal to my friendships. I hold most every one of them in very high regard and try to do as much as I can to nurture them. It’s not very often that I want to throw a friend away or not see them anymore. It makes me sad to think others might be more comfortable with this idea… I guess it just makes me realize maybe they don’t want to be friends with me as much as I thought they did. :(

Actually, that’s getting a little too victim about it all. People are busy – including myself… so in the end it’s just where everything lands… and hopefully we’ll get to spend happy wonderful time together again. (I’m overflowing with love, come take a spoonful!!)

Overall though, I just don’t like friends going in & out of my life as much as they have in the last 8 years here. Actually – I suppose the last 10 years due to all my moving, relationships, etc. Damn that show Friends for making me dream of a solid 10 close friends around me at all times!! But, that’s why family is just so fantastic. They’re friends for life.

So today is Tuesday and I’m excited because:

• I’m going to see Stephen Malkmus tonite
• I am going to get a new monitor and RAM this week!!!
• I get to have lunch w/ my awesome friend Phil (after meeting with a potential client, that would be a great contract)
• I’ve been invited to a client’s company party – which is great because I still get to enjoy a company holiday party, w/o working FT at a company! yay! Plus, this team is the coolest, so I couldn’t ask to have a better holiday party to go to.
• Rick just bought a bunch of new CDs… and I’m really excited about the Les Savy Fav’s and new Blur!